Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Quick Update

Still at the beach. Having a decent time. Have been able to find some joy through all of my sadness. Went to dinner tonight. Who walks in?? Identical twin girls with curly hair (Emma has curly hair and I am sure my girls would have too.) All I could think about is "Would Sophia & Ellie look like this at that age?" and the inevitable..."Why them and not me???" Luckily they sat far, far away and I did not have to see them again. "Sighhhhh"

15 comments:

  1. Tina I am glad to hear that you are finding some good moments. I can only imagine the pain you felt when the girls walked in.

    I pray that you continue to have more peaceful moments to ease the pain.

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  2. ugh, I know how you feel. Try to enjoy the sunshine, and your well needed vacation!

    MB

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  3. oh sooo understand Tina. There have been twins EVERYWHERE- and gee that makes me grumpy to be honest. For me- funnily enough- (or not so really) twin BOYS everywhere- I keep saying- "oh come on- give me a break!" I mean really were they all there before?! Or is there really a twin epidemic and it's just us missing out?
    I guess even as I get better at moving on- this kind of thing is still griping me. We will get there hey, Tina?! Hope you are having a marvelous time at the beach my friend xx

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  4. I remember the first time after losing the boys my DH and I ran into twin boys who were about 6months old. It was like salt in my open wound.

    *hugs*

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  5. I'm glad you are enjoying the beach. I know it is hard to see. And then on top of that, some days are just sadder than others. Thinking of you....

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  6. I'm glad you are finding some joy. I know it had to be hard to see those twin girls! ((hugs))

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  7. I know just what you mean. Seeing twin girls will forever tug at my heart. Enjoy the rest of your trip.
    OO

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  8. Oh Tina. I am so glad that you are having a few decent moments on your holiday.

    I feel like I am being followed by twins at times. They seem to be everywhere since I found out that I was expecting twins. Twin girls, I think they will always make my heart a little heavy. Because of what might have been. I can't imagine how they make you feel.

    I wish that Sophia and Ellie were with you.

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  9. I am glad for these blogs that give us a safe place to grieve for that is what we will do forever...grieve for our babies.

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  10. Oh, Tina. I feel so much the same way. I just got back from vacation and it was like twins were haunting me! I was gone on my due date and that day I saw 3 sets of boy/girl twins. What are the chances? I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry that you have to imagine what your baby girls would look like.
    Thinking of you...
    Christy W

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  11. Hi Tina,
    Just wanted to say I just visited your etsy site. You're super talented!!
    xoxo

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  12. I went to dinner with a friend last week and at a shopping center was a little fountain that 2 boys (about 2 and 3 years old) were playing in. I ignored them and kept walking only to hear the dad call his son Jack. It killed me.

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  13. Oh ugh. So sorry for that interruption. And so glad to hear from you. Now - go relax and enjoy :)

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  14. I have felt that same way. I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me when I see little twin girls. Easter was the hardest for me. I saw little twin girls at church dressed in identical easter dresses with hats on...and my heart just crumbled. It should have been my girls. Take care sweet friend.

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