The funeral, 10 months, strange ? & a fb giveaway

Hutch's grandma's funeral was Thursday. It was strange for me; I felt very peaceful and didn't even cry at the services. I know it is hard for everyone who loved her to let go of such an important part of the family, but when I think of her, I think of someone who lived a long wonderful life. She lived every moment to the fullest and never held back. I think if we were able to ask her, she would say that she has no regrets. I am very sad for Hutch's grandpa though. They have been married 64 years and together even longer than that. My heart breaks for him. He has always been so feisty and chipper, and to see him now, you know his heart has been ripped from his chest. I am saddened that his life partner has been taken from him, but I have to believe that he will get through this. If we are able to work through our grief, he can work though his too.

Thursday was also 10 months since saying goodbye to my sweet Sophia & Ellie. After the funeral, we hosted lunch at our house. It was a beautiful day, even with all the sadness. We had white roses on all the tables, so after the luncheon we made 4 bouquets from the roses and took one of them out to the girls. I loved taking a piece of their great-grandma's day out to them. Then this weekend we took the rest of the flowers out to grandma. Unfortunately they are not buried at the same cemetery, but that is okay.

I have felt so much peace and comfort since grandma's passing. I feel kind of selfish and strange for not being sadder than I am. But I am taking so much comfort in thinking she is with my girls. They now have someone who loves them to look after them until I can be there. I feel a sense of peace knowing that they are all together.

The cat is definitely out of the bag about my pregnancy. My doctor took me off work 3+ weeks ago, so everyone from work now knows. I've been asked a question a few times that kind of bothers me. People ask me, "How many babies this time, one or two?" In a way I feel this is insensitive, but on the other hand, I like the fact that they recognize my twins. I don't know, it just seems weird to me when I hear these words come out of someone's mouth. I guess I am probably being too analytical about it.

Franchesca at Small Bird Studio made me a button for my etsy shop. She was great to work with even through all my indecisiveness. Thanks Franchesca!! And speaking of my shop...I had my 100th sale on etsy a few days ago! To thank everyone for their support, I am doing a giveaway on face.book. If you are interested in winning a gift certificate to my shop, please go here, become a fan, and leave a comment. I will be choosing a winner in a few days.

Hope you all have a great week!!