Tuesday, January 26, 2010

9 months

Yesterday was 9 months since Sophia's & Ellie's death. How can it be that they have been gone for so long? How is it that I have managed to get up and still breathe everyday? It all feels so new still, but also so old. Yesterday morning was very difficult, I didn't know if I would make it through class, but I did, the distractions (20 second graders) got me through it.

Missing you sweet girls. I love you. xoxo

22 comments:

  1. We just hit 10 months and I feel the same way. I hate that I'm inching towards 1 year. It all still feels so fresh. I miss her so much. Thinking of you and your girls! <3

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  2. Thinking of you and Sophia and Ellie. xo

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  3. Nine months hit me hard. Thinking of you today with love. XO

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  4. I'm sorry Tina. I feel your pain.

    Big Hugs,
    Lauren

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  5. It hit me hard as well. =( Thinking of you and your beautiful little girls!

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  6. Such a long time, thinking of your sweet girls today.x

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  7. Thinking of you Tina and your sweet girls!!

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  8. here with you lovely tina xxx

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  9. Thinking of you and your lovely little girls. Hugs.

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  10. Thinking of you and your girls! ((hugs))

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  11. Sending support and thinking of you, Sophia and Ellie. *hug*

    (here from LFCA)

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  12. Time has a whole new meaning now.

    Thinking of you, your DH and your girls.

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  13. praying for you and remembering your beautiful sophia and ellie always...

    also sending prayers for hutch's gramma. sorry i am a little behind in my reading.

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  14. I'm so sorry you're going through this, and thinking of Sophia and Ellie.

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  15. I'm in the middle of my ninth month too...I get to have 2 of them, since they were 3 wks apart. It is tough lately, for some reason, tougher than ususal. It's hitting hubs hard these days too. Thinking of you, your girls, and your rainbow. Hoping Brigditte, Ashlyn, Sophia, & Ellie are having fun together in baby heaven.
    (())

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  16. Sending you a ((hug)) and thinking of your beautiful girls.

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  17. We just went past 9 months as well and that days seems like it's almost been the hardest of them all. I tend to go to work on the 13th in such a bad mood, but the kids do tend to make it better. Even when I don't really want them to. Thinking of you and your sweet girls, Tina.

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  18. I am so sorry. Sending you so much love and lots of hugs. The milestone days are always the hardest...(((hugs)))

    -erika
    littletinyfootprints.com

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  19. More hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  20. Tina,
    I just want to say how sorry I am that you had to go through your loss. I just hit the 1 month mark. I lost my little guy at 21 weeks due to a cord accident. You are so strong and such an inspiration to me. From reading your blog it sounds like you are a teacher. I too teach 3rd grade and there are days that I don't think I can do it any more then these sweet kids help me through yet another day. I have so many questions I would love to ask you. The first being: How did you get up the courage to try again? I know I am supposed to but I can't convince myself that I can go through it again. I want to so badly, but how do I do it?
    Again you are amazing!

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  21. i'm right behind you, and i wonder all the time how it is that i've gotten this far, how i'm still breathing. going about my day, and all of the sudden wondering, what the hell just happened? was it all a dream? i couldn't possibly be alive after that, right?
    thinking of you and your girls.
    ps did you find the pics of your girls' prayer bundles on my page? isn't much, but i hope you like them <3

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