21 weeks and 1 day

21 weeks and 1 day. That was how far along I was when I went into labor with Sophia & Ellie, that was their gestational age. Saturday I was 21 weeks and 1 day into this pregnancy. It is a peculiar feeling. I can't really put words to it. In a way it is sad, but at the same time its not...I don't know, like I said I can't put words to it. But to know what this baby looks like at this age, how small she is, what her skin is like, to have held two just like her is surreal, and when I think back to that day, it just hurts.

A couple weeks ago I received 2 very special packages in the mail. The first one was from Katy at In Hannah's Honor:

These are beautiful wooden plaques with the girls' names and a lovely scripture imprinted on them. Thank you so much Katy, I love them and I can't wait to hang them in my home.

That same day I also received a package from my special friend in Ireland, Ines at Forward Tumble:
This is a piece of driftwood that Ines so beautifully scribed the girls' names onto. Thank you Ines, I treasure this gift from you!!

A few weeks ago Leila's Mommy made these prayer bundles for my girls. She then tied them (along with many others) to the Tree of Life. It is said that every time the wind blows the prayers are carried out into the universe. Thank you so much, I love it!!!

Then today I received an e-mail from Lisa at Jasper, Forever our First Born. She had taken this beautiful picture (and more) and posted them on her blog Waterfall Angels. Thank you Lisa...I love them all!!I just want to say thank you to all who have done these special things for my girls. It is so meaningful to me to have a piece Sophia & Ellie in whatever form it comes. Thank you!!

Hutch's grandma...she is stable but not well. She appears to have all (or most) of her cognitive ability, but she is very limited physically. She can squeeze your hand to respond to a question and she was giving thumbs up/down a few days ago, but I don't know if this is still the case. She is being moved into an assisted living facility where she will be receiving therapy and will hopefully make improvements. I have not had the opportunity to tell her my thoughts yet, and now I am not sure I need to. I think if she improves, I may tell her, but really I do think she already knows and I am at peace with that. Thank you for your thoughts and support during this time. Knowing there are people out there who do not think I am crazy for thinking these things helps me get through the day!!