Yesterday I was reading the story Stell.aluna to my students. For those of you who may not be familiar with this story here is a quick synopsis:
A mother fruit bat has a baby who she loves so much, she names her Stell.aluna. The mother is flying through the night sky with her baby and along cones an owl and flies into them. Mother can not hold onto Stell.aluna and she falls below. However, Stell.aluna didn't fall to the ground, she fell into a bird's nest with 3 baby birds. The mother bird allows Stell.aluna to stay and treats her like the rest of her babies. A while later, after Stell.aluna has grown a bit, she meets some other bats. After hearing her story, one of the bats realized that Stell.aluna is her baby that she thought she lost when the owl attacked. Mother and baby are reunited and live happily ever after...yada, yada, yada.
So anyway, I am reading this story and it hits me. Mother fruit bat is reunited with her baby. She wasn't gone forever like my girls are. I will not find them two months from now or two years from now. I hope we will be reunited when my time here is over, but I have to live my life here on Earth without my girls. It took everything I had in me not to run out of the room. I had to hold my tears back and keep my voice from cracking. It as very difficult and brought up a lot of emotions for me.
Today I am home with Emma because she is sick again. I left the movie Stell.aluna for the sub to show to my students so I do not have to relive that story again. I just don' think I could do it. I am happy for mother fruit bat and Stell.aluna, but just still so sad for myself and my girls...and all of you out there who understand.
It's in his heart
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