Today I will be attending a funeral for a baby who lived 5 days. A friend in real life who is living a pain I know all too well. I am so sorry for her, for her husband, and their living daughters. They are the sweetest people and don't deserve this; none of us do.
I'm not sure how I'm feeling. I think I'm okay, but it's bringing me right back to those early days two+ years ago when I was faced with the reality that my babies would not be coming home. The reality that I would have to plan their funeral, pick out their casket, tell my older children that their sisters died. I don't let myself go there very often, it is too dark, too raw, too painful. I choose to remember them in a beautiful way because they were beautiful, they are beautiful.
So today as I remember sweet Leanna with her family, Sophia & Ellie will be right there in my thoughts too, but really, they always are anyways.
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2 days ago
So sorry for their loss and sad that it is opening those wounds for you. They are lucky to have someone as wonderful as you supporting them!
ReplyDeleteTina,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is right there with yours. I fell apart just reading this post, as my heart just aches so deeply for them and for you. Reliving loss is difficult and I will pray for you as you support your friend and honor her daughter. I'm glad she has you in her life, someone who genuinely understands and can support her. Someone who will say "all the right things" and not all the wrong things.
Thinking of you and praying for in the coming days.
xxx
I can't imagine what it would be like to attend another baby's funeral. I hope I never have to experience that. Thinking of you and baby Leanna.
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Thinking of you during this difficult time. Times like this make my grief raw again.
ReplyDeleteHow sad for your friend. How sad that babies keep dying.
ReplyDeleteso sorry for your friend's loss and the heartache it stirs up in you, too.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to them and you.
ReplyDeletePraying for your friend and strength as things become fresh again. (hugs)
ReplyDeleteFound your blog on another baby loss mom's blog...I am so very sorry for the loss of your twin girls. I lost my son to SIDS a year ago.
ReplyDeleteIt is always hard when someone else is going through what you know all to well...I hate when I find out new people have lost their child, its heartbreaking and something I could never wish on anyone :(