Friday, November 5, 2010

heavy heart

I have a heavy heart…I suppose I always will, but sometimes it just hurts more than others and I don’t know why.  I think it is just grief’s nasty way.  I should be excited, I should be happy, I should be anxious…tomorrow I am meeting some other blm’s and I really am excited, but I still hurt too.  Maybe it is the closeness of us all (if that makes any sense) that has my mind wrapped around my girls and unable to let go.  I just miss them, I just want them here, I just want them out of the ground, I just need them in arms, safe and sound.  I need to wake up and this all be a horrible nightmare, but it’s not going away…ever.

So, tomorrow…I am going down south to meet Rachel, Bree,  maybe Tiffany, and a couple other’s that I don’t think I know yet.  I am so excited to be meeting these wonderful ladies face to face.  

25 Days of Giveaways is definitely on!!!!  If you commented about hosting a day I have you penciled in (that’s a lie, I haven’t planned any of it yet, but I will) for your day to host a giveaway.  I will be contacting all of you soon and I will kickoff the first giveaway December 1st.  So glad you all are looking forward to this again, as I am too.  Please help to spread the word so we can brighten everyone’s days this season.

Love you girls!! xx, Mommy

13 comments:

  1. Yeah,just yeah, and big hugs. x

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  2. Oh Tina. I know. I miss my girl too. I hope you have a lovely time at the meet up C xo

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  3. I hate the way grief just throws us those curve balls, never really knowing what changed or why the extra sadness just creeps in. I hope your spirits lift soon. This past week my heart was just aching. Crazy aching. (((hugs))) to you.

    ps- I'm crazy jealous that you're meeting all these BLM! :) So lucky!

    ps#2 - whatever you need I'm here for the giveaway :) If you have a button or something like last year I'm totally adding it to my blog!

    x

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  4. Hope you have a beautiful day meeting some new friends. ((HUGS)) You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  5. I'm so jealous you all get to meet! Have a wonderful time! Hugs to all of you!!!!

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  6. I hope meeting with the other BLMs helps your heart. I well know how those feelings can sneak up on you. Thank you for hostessing the Christmas giveaway!

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  7. My heart is heavy, too. Even though I have so much to be grateful for...the heaviness just doesn't seem to lift. Wishing you some lighter days. (())

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  8. Meeting other BLMs can bring so much comfort, I hope all of you had a wonderful day! And I'm looking forward to the giveaways! xo

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  9. I can so relate to this post, Tina. I feel like no matter how happy I feel, there is a heaviness that tugs at my heart...
    Super excited for the giveaways! Gosh, last year at this time seems like a million years ago.
    Hope you had fun at the picnic! So jealous that I couldn't get to meet you! Hopefully this summer!
    Remembering Sophia & Ellie with you xo

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  10. Tina,
    I am so sorry your heart feels so heavy right now...I have those days (weeks=), also).
    I missed your giveaway sign up post. I remember how blessed I was to connect to other blm this time last year. I would love to host a giveaway, also, if I am not too late.

    Hugs....

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  11. I hope that meeting the amazing BLM's will give you some comfort and lighten your heart. It is so disarming to be "OK" and then not being able to find any solace.

    I am so excited to be a part of this years giveaway.

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  12. Some days are def harder. How exciting you get to meet some fellow BLMs!

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  13. I agree some days are harder than others, and I think it will always be this way. I hope that you enjoyed your time meeting other blm's, I'm excited for you! *big hugs*

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