wishing

Today was a terrible day. Every morning is crazy around here...trying to get all of us out of the house and to school on time is no easy task! We barely made it today, and then as I was walking to my classroom I see it...a double stroller. Inside the double stroller were two sweet baby girls, with adorable bows in their hair, and just as cute as can be. It hurt, I know I've said it before, but it just hurts. Why can't that be my life? Why? I don't understand. The vision of those little lovelies has been in my head all day and the tears have been in my eyes.

Wishing you were here with us Sophia & Ellie. xo

a quote

Read this on a fb friend's status today:

"When we are crushed like grapes, we cannot think of the wine we will become. The sorrow overwhelms us, makes us throw ourselves on the ground, face down, and sweat drops of blood. Then we need to be reminded that our cup of sorrow is also our cup of joy and that one day we will be able to taste the joy as fully as we now taste the sorrow.” ~H. Nouwen~"

Not sure what it is reference to, but it makes me think of our losses. This fb friend also had a daughter who was born still many, many years ago. She has been and still is a huge comfort to me. Hmmm, I wonder...

So much to say, so little time to write it. Thinking of you all and reading when I can. Went back to work last week; first day of school today; HATE being away from Gigi; hoping it is all temporary. Wednesday will be 16 months since Sophia & Ellie were in my arms; still missing and loving them; so sad they are not here; so happy they were here. Still want to share Gigi's birth story; can't believe she is almost 3 months old; I want time to just STOP! That's all I have time for now; hope to get back here soon...feeling a giveaway may come soon!

remembering

Always loving and remembering you girls.

xoxo,

Mommy